High Expectations + Low Expectations

Since new years, my life has had it's ups and downs, just like everyone. The wave of excitement that reaches it's peak on how life can be great, then suddenly goes down into the dirt just as fast as the excitement hits. And that's just how life goes and it's just something we all have to deal with.

Let's get to the point of this post shall we.

I was invited to go to a, how do we call it, a simple showcase. Where one would express their thanks to those who have supported them for all the years they were active, and such. Being a natural introvert who craves for human interaction from time to time. I accepted this invitation hoping it would open some opportunities for the future. I hoped that I would have an awesome time. I hoped that if I attended, the event would have a huge impact on me and on my life. I hoped that when it was over, inspiration and motivation to do much more with my life would grow and stabilize itself for a few days. I hoped I would grab the emotions that float around when I go to events like these. But I guess hoped for too much.

This is all internally, and has nothing to do with the event's atmosphere or the people. This is all just how I take in the event and how my subconscious decided to take in all in, but hasn't fully decided whether this event was something good or something bad.

I walked out of that house feeling numb, stunned, and unaccomplished. When I wanted to feel inspired, hopeful, and satisfied. The entire drive home, I was pondering on the reasons why I felt like I felt nothing but mostly numbness for what had just happened. My thoughts then moved towards the idea that I had expected too much from this event, when it was just a small piece of gratitude from an amazing artist. And of course I despise myself for feeling this way towards a special event such as this.

Let us accept what had happened, accept that the emotions what were built up high had been built but had also been broken down into something that will grown to become much larger.

It's okay to expect too much, but weary for how high your expectations grow fore it may be painfully confusing to feel your expectations getting tossed into the ground to feel undone.

I hope you all had a wonderful day! 

2014: Fight with me

2013 has been quite a challenge. I went into the year filled with doubts and fear, and I am ending year feeling like I've half won the battle.

This 2013 was filled with high ups and down lows. It felt like a definite war zone and I'm on the winning side. Though the year has been a battlefield, and the number of times I broke down, cried myself to sleep and scolded myself to do better, I've pulled through and survived.

I don't want to say the cliche "A New Year = New Beginnings" like the did last year and the year before that. I want to walk into the new year filled with hope. Hope that the "New Beginning" would end with smiles and warm hearts. Hope for happiness. Hope for success. Hope for love. Hope for courage. Hope for abundance. 

With 2013 ending. I want to list down the highlights of the year:

January: Started up my fitness routines

February: Officially started my driving lessons and started working at my Dads family business

March: Started going to scheduled workout classes (zumba, pilates, yoga) - It was haaaard but super fun! 

April: 

- Got my license on the morning of my birthday.

- Celebrated my birthday at The Sea Loft in Amwaj. Though the weather was crappy and we couldn't find the pool. There were fun memorable moments made.

May: Attended and actually "helped out" at a Toastmaster Area Competition. - It was fun and productive! I smiled, shook hands and held my head high with positivity! xD

 

 June: Attended my first beach party and got braces! O.O

 

July: Started Arabic classes but was unfortunately discontinued due to my sudden impatience and over thinking it's purpose in my life. But I did learn a little bit more arabic then I already knew. 

September: Saw an Elvis impersonator and took a selfie with him! xD

 

November: 

- Confirmed that I was going to be awarded Magna Cum Laude. 

- Graduation Practice 

- Graduation Day - I finally graduated from university. 

 

  

 

December: 

- Celebrated a local bloggers Blogoversary - It was super fun!

- Christmas Time - PRESENTS! SO MANY PRESENTS!

And those are my highlights for 2013. I now realized that I didn't do much xD Even if I didn't, I did have fun. 

Things have come and things have gone, but there are things that have come to stay, those are the things we have to cherish and be extremely grateful for. To those things and people, I want to say 'Thank you' for all the support you've given me through my time on the battlefield. You have bandaged my wounds and pushed me to fight until the very end. Though this battle is far from over, I can see it's future. Its future is victory. 

2014, come at me. I am ready for you! I will fight you with my sword of courage and gut-feelings and shield myself from your strikes with my shield of hope! I am ready! 

Have a great new year everyone! 

May you all carry the courage and hope throughout this 2014, and win this battle along side me. 

Love all, Love life 

xox

Thankful Thursday #2 - Christmas Time

I do hope you all had a pleasant Christmas time with you family and friends, going to christmas parties, exchanging gifts, and chugging down eggnog.

This week had been a blast, and here are the things I am grateful for:

Dec 20th - Dec 26th

1. I am grateful for my braces that has been doing really great so far. 

 - I received the news from my orthodontist that my braces would be coming off after 4 months, and I am extremely grateful for that.

2. I am grateful for everyone who joined my giveaway on my official book/fashion/food/beauty blog 

3. I am grateful for all the Christmas presents I received from my cousins and siblings. 

- I can't thank you enough for all you've literally given me. *hugs*

4. I am grateful for hot chocolate and tea for warming me up on this cold December.

- I've been literally shivering because of the cold lately

5. I am grateful for the Christmas scented candles that make my room smell deliciously Christmasy and as well as keeping my room a bit warmer.

6. I am grateful for the new glasses

- Although they give me head aches, they have made my eye sight clearer. 

7. I am also grateful that I only have to continue my "patching" for my amblyopia condition for one more month. 

You don't need to think really hard to be grateful for something. Look around you and you'll find things you're thankful you have with you. 

Be grateful, even for the small things. 

Thankful Thursdays #1 - The Start

Being grateful is an action that one must take every single day of their lives. It is a feeling or attitude of acknowledgment for the things and people around us that bring us joy and happiness. Saying "Thank You" is a form of politeness between us humans. Exchanging gratitude when one receives or will receive. It is a way into ones good soul.

Most of us forget to be grateful for the people and things around us, and Thankful Thursdays is a fun meme to remind us to be grateful. All you need to do is list down a bunch of things that you're grateful for this week. You can spice it up by adding photos, descriptions or you could keep it simple and just list them down.

What I'm grateful for this week (13th - 19th)

1. I am grateful for getting the opportunity to go to my first blog-related event.
2. I am grateful for getting the multiple opportunities to join blog hops and book blog tours.
3. I am grateful for how strong I've gotten despite my internal doubts about myself 
4. I am grateful for the scented candles that had surrounded me and kept me warm during this cold december
5. I am grateful that winter has finally arrived in Bahrain. 
6. I am grateful for my multiple blankets that keep me warm during the cold winter night.
7. I am grateful for the amount of gifts I was able to purchase for christmas
8. I am grateful the my family for supporting and understanding that I sometimes need my space. 
9. I am grateful for all that I have and all that I am. 

And those are the things I am grateful for this week. 

Join in yourself and list down the things you are grateful for. :)

Be Happy

Life - So it begins

For those of you who follow my Book/Fashion/Food blog, Interested in ALL, you may have seen a post of my graduation day. Yes, that's right, I have officially graduated from University with a Degree in Bachelor of Science in Business Informatics. But for those of you who missed it, here it is: Graduation Day.

From that day and onwards, I have had the constant pressure to get on with my life outside from working for my father and from sitting in front of the computer screen all day. I have felt the pressure of getting a job and living my life out in the real world. And I honestly thought I was ready for it.

I would imagine myself walking into the building where I "worked", dressed in the most fabulous corporate outfit and greeting everyone as I make my way up to my office. It was a life that I supposedly wanted. It was the image of a life my brain put in front of me, but there was this feeling at the back of my head that felt wrong about that particular image.

Whether it was fear or my spidy-senses telling me it's a bad idea that I should avoid, I am unsure.

From my observation from those around me who have explained their situations after they graduated from university or as some of you may call it; undergrad school, and the majority of them has been in a very similar situation as me. They graduated, and then what? What do they do next? They go ahead and try working and jumping into different industries that are related and/or unrelated to the major they took. They would go at it for years upon years, and suddenly while they're working it hits them, "This is what I want to do" they say.

They've spent and wasted their precious years doing things that makes them miserable and will most probably add to the wrinkles that are bound to appear on their faces when they get older. I cannot seem to wrap my head around the idea of when one finishes college they have to go through multiple jobs before they settle down in one.

I believe in happiness. 

Happiness is the only way to live.

Whether you're happy doing nothing or happy being productive. 

Why can't we have all find our way the moment we get out of the constant cycle of finding jobs that we don't really want, and find something we do want.

Looking for the perfect career? Find something that makes you feel good and excited when you image yourself working there, not something that makes you feel scared and doubtful. Feeling feelings of doubt always seem to find it's way to things that are bad and dark.

And if you are currently working in a position you dislike completely and want to leave. Then leave, but only if you have a back up plan. No one wants to quit their job and end up getting kicked out of your apartment a month later because they didn't pay rent. Even if you've only been there for a month, I encourage you to go towards the things that make you excited and happy, then quit. It's okay.

You're going after what you want, so don't consider yourself as a quitter because you quit something you don't want to do. You are strong for pushing away the obstacles leading to where you want to be.

You are strong, and you are happy.

Lemon & Lime Water

It's a very simple concoction that helps with cleansing all the toxins in your body.

Ingredients
1 lemon
1-2 limes
Water :)

Procedure
Cut both lemon and lime into 1 mm or half a milimeter slices.
Take out the seeds (we don't want those seeds floating around do we)
Drop the lemon and lime into a bottle or jar that you wouldn't mind using for 48 hours.
Add in the water
Stir it around a bit, and you're done!

This lasts for 48 hours and can be refilled.

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My uncle was the one who introduced this to my mother, who then introduced this to me. Honestly, I wanted to try it out because I thought it looked pretty. With all that yellow and lime green color... (Bright colors.. O.O)

This is what I found when I did some research on it.

The Ten Reasons Why

1) The warm lemon water helps purify and stimulate the liver. (Yay liver!) Lemon/lime water liquefies bile while inhibiting excess bile flow.

2) Warm lemon/lime water aids digestion. It's atomic composition is similar to saliva and the hydrochloric acid of digestive juices.

3) The liver produces more enzymes from lemon/lime water than any other food.

4) The lemon/lime water helps bowels eliminate naturally and easily. (I am currently waiting for this to happen)

5) Lemons and limes are high in potassium. Potassium is an important mineral that works with sodium for smooth electrical transmission in the brain and nervous system. Depression, anxiety, fogginess, and forgetfulness can often be traced to low potassium blood levels. (Negativity BE GONE!) That same nervous system needs potassium to assure steady signals to the heart. So your heart health is improved from the lemon water's potassium.

6) Calcium and magnesium are plentiful in good ratio to each other in lemon/lime water. Magnesium is important for heart health and calcium prevents rickets.

7) Lemon/lime water can help lower blood pressure.

8) Lemon/lime water has an alkalizing effect in the body as it is buffered. Even if you drink it just before any meal, it will help your body maintain a higher pH than if you didn't drink it. The higher or more alkaline your pH, the more your inner terrain is resistant to minor and major disease.

9) Helps dilute uric acid, which if it accumulates it creates arthritic pain or gout.

10) Helps reduce phlegm in the body. (Ew...phlegm)

Here is the link to rest of the article:- http://www.naturalnews.com/033383_lemon_juice_digestion.html#ixzz2YkZsfwS9

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I drink this while I'm working out - I don't really know how relevant that was to this entire blog post but yeaah... xD

It's good for ya! Try it out! xD

It'll keep you healthy! 

Perfect Teeth, Loosing 4 kg, and everything else.

Last week, I got my braces. I got my bottom ones first then a few days later I got my top ones put in. I personally hate going to the dentist. I pulled out all of my baby teeth on my own, except one, when my mom forced me to go to the dentist and let the orthodontist pull it out of me. She didn't even give me a shot and I ready started crying my eyes out. I'm scared of needles in my mouth.

Due to terrible past events or occurrences during my childhood, I was left growing up with something called "Tongue Thrust". Where my tongue is just...I can't explain it. Google it.

Due to my Tongue Thrust, the orthodontist put in a barrier that will stop my tongue from pushing my front teeth out.

The first few days, my tongue was confused, swollen, my teeth hurt like hell, and I could barely eat anything solid. So I ended up eating all things squishy and liquid. Which meant; Oatmeal, Soup, Noodles, Yogurt, and Ice Cream.

That is the reason why I lost 4 kg in a such a short period. I could only eat things that are liquid and squishy. It was a pain. I was depressed for the entire week.

But things did turn out okay. I'm used to my braces, and I can see a big change in my teeth just in a week. Soon I'll have the perfect teeth I've been dreaming about.

At the beginning of the month, I was 72kg. I've been 72kg since the beginning for the year, and honestly I didn't think about it. I didn't really think about my weight as much as I did last year, and the year before that. I just let things flow. I went to the gym. I eat how I thought I was eat if I were my perfect weight. And I accepted who I was.

But loosing 4 kg in less than a month. It was just exciting and scary at the same time. After finally accepting that I am now 68kg, I have to be honest and say that I am terrified for gaining weight again. I haven't been 68kg in years. I try to focus on the good things.

Tip: If you've recently lost a lot of weight, and you're terrified to gain all that weight back, think of the good outcomes of it.
 - You look fabulous
 - You're lighter
 - Most clothes fit you perfectly
 - You feel great
 - You feel a lot more confident about yourself and your looks.

That's what I'm trying to focus on.

Everyone says that I've lost a lot. They actually see it - and that is what triggered my fear of gaining weight. But I am going to keep going, and I'm going to push through my fear. This is my body, and I can do what I want with it.

So determined... ahahaha

I'm going to a party later and I'm nervous, excited, and doubting whether I should go or not. But again, I am going to push through my fears and go. I need to get out of my comfort zone and go to a party with out the sister who is always looking out for me. I've decided to be the responsible one and the majorly confident one, and try to be shameless. Like Shameless Maya on youtube

http://www.youtube.com/user/shamelessmaya

Y'all should check her out. She is my inspiration to be confident in myself and to be shameless.

Okay this is getting too long.

My most precious advice I could give anyone, when they're going through hard times or not so hard times is to "Always think about the good things, before & after".

And one more thing I forgot to mention, I've started meditating before I sleep, and it helps me a lot. It calms my mind and my emotions. I keeps me still and really helps. I meditate using the mantra from Eat, Pray, Love "Om Namah Shivaya" which means "I honor the divinity within me". It's a great mantra.

Meditating before bed or in the morning is a great habit. It really helps when you're depressed, angry, scared or stressed. 

Love yourself, Love all!
Thank you!
Have a great day everyone! <3 br="">

My days

Hello my dearest readers!
What's up?

I thought I'd update y'all on the recent events that have occurred in my dull life lately.

Well since I've been done with university (with the classes and such) I have been doing absolutely nothing for the entire January besides going out occasionally in the weekends. I basically have been sitting home watching TV Series; most specifically Merlin, for the entire month.

Other than that I've been attending Toastmaster meeting twice every month.

I thought I'd share a picture. I'm over there on the far left corner with the chopsticks in the hair. 

This was taken during our latest meeting and the theme was "Chinese New Year"

Check out our website! Young Adult Toastmasters

So yea. Now I am somewhat temporarily working for my dad. While I'm unsure of what I want to do next, I'm working for him. Helping out with managing the business and other stuff. 

I've been meaning to write a Valentines Day post but I somehow couldn't put myself up to writing it, I just wasn't feeling it. But I want to write something about Relationships and Love and all that. 

I can say that I somewhat have my ideal body. I'm alright with my body right now. There are some parts of it that I treasure and some that I wish that weren't there but I learn to love them through time. Like my tummy. xD

One thing I learned about getting to your ideal body is to find what you love about yourself, cherish it and love it to death, and you'll find more things that you love about yourself through time. I loved how my hands looked and from there I started loving other stuff on my body, and gradually I noticed my body changing to how I want it to be. 

I am and will forever be grateful for losing 18 kilograms in 3 years. 

When you're lost in life, just stay put and relax a bit. Love what you have now, and enjoy it. Soon you'll find the way. It may take time to reveal itself to you but it will come. Ideas will start popping up in your head, opportunities will start coming up, more people will acknowledge how good you are, and you will get there. Just keep on believing that there will always be a way

A New Year means New Beginnings

I think it's time I should write, it's been a week since the year started.

I started this year off doing nothing. I just finished university on the beginning of December 2012, and since then I've been lost. I haven't really admitted to myself that I've finished university because I haven't thought of what happens next like I usually do.

SO!
For this year, 2013, I am going to do things as they come along. If there is an opportunity that I think I'll enjoy, I'll take it. Whenever my gut tells me I should do something, then I'll do it!

I am going to let things flow like a river this year. YES!
And I encourage you to join me.

If you feel lost with your life and you feel like you have no purpose. Take a deep breath, and count to three. Let everything flow and take its place where its meant to be. 

As for my weight loss. I have not weighed myself since June, and there is a reason to that. I don't have a weighing scale. My aunt took it and I have no idea where it is. So basically, I lost it. ahahahahaha
I need to buy a new one.

I have one thing though, for those of you who are struggling weight. Stop and think of your actions and think "Would I do this if I were thin?". Think of what you would do when you're already thin.

That's all for now!

Love everyone! and Be grateful!
Love you all!
xoxo

Candles make me feel better.

Hello there,

The feelings of worry, sadness, depression, anxiety, negativity, breakdown. These can all be over come  or controlled just by lighting a candle. 

Yesterday I bought new candles and it was also yesterday what I've grown a great interest for them. 

These are special candle because they "Sea Side Collection" 

I love the sea. Even thought I can't swim, I still love the sea, the ocean. But I despise water parks.  

So light yourself a candle, scented or not. 

Take a nap with it on.

It'll make you feel comfortable and so much better. 

xoxo

The Meaning of Life

For the past week, I've felt completely lost and blank with my life. I started asking questions to myself like;
"Why are we in this world? Why is there life? Why is there the universe? How is all this possible? How is life impossible? What is the purpose of life? Why is it so meaningful?"

and other random questions of why are here, living on this planet in this universe.

I have basically been on auto pilot the entire week, thinking, wondering, cogitating my life and it's purpose. 

On Friday, my cousin came over, and I slightly opened up to her, and told her my thoughts and questions, and she showed me a video that at least explains the meaning of life. 

Here is the video if you want to watch it. Sex, Death and the Meaning of Life

My cousin explained to me that there is no real meaning of life, and that everyone has their own purpose and meaning to life. No one can really explain it's meaning. We even googled it and skimmed through the wikipedia page. Meaning of life.

At the end of everything that I read and watched for about 2 hours or less, and the entire day of trying to sink everything in and understand it. I came up with the conclusion that life has no meaning and that you have to enjoy the beauty of life and what it has to offer. 

I'll be finishing university on December at the age of 18. This seems another big leap in my life and I think this is the reason that made me think twice of the existence of entire universe and everything inside and around it. 

I still seem a bit lost and black and my brain is probably still on auto pilot. But, we just all have to face life head on and enjoy it. Enjoy what it has to offer, because who knows, we'll maybe only get one life. Or as most people say these days that really annoy the hell out of me "You only live once (YOLO)"

I fucking hate that line because it became so annoyingly mainstream. But it speaks that truth. You may only live once or you may be resurrected or something.  

You just have accept the life you have and enjoy the wonders of everything it presents, because to be completely honest, there is absolutely nothing you can do about it; besides kill yourself. 

The meaning of life is the most unanswered questions in the entire universe; in my opinion. Life is just there, without any explanation, it just exists and no one knows why. It is up to you what you do with yours. 

I am going to make the best of it. Starting with finishing university with honors. From there I'll have to decide what to do next. 

Run Run Run

I have been going walking/jogging/running outside with my sister for a about 3-4 days now. We would go and do that for about 30 minutes or so. And these 30 minutes include a little bit of jogging, power walking and just normal walking.

Let me tell you this, If you want to loose weight, if you want to have your ideal body and become your ideal weight, then all you need to do is to get off your butt and work for it. Get motivated. Stay motivated.

Going out for a walk or run alone may seem a tad bit scary for some of us because sometimes people stare and you kind of get freaked out by them, or probably because we don't like going alone. I suggest going with someone so that both of you can motivate each other.

After you take that 20 minute or 30 minute run or walk, you will feel tired and exhausted BUT, you will feel great and fantastic after your done and it will inspire you to do much more with your day and more with your life, because I know I felt the same way by the end of my run.

What you're going to do:
What I want you all to do right now is to go and call up a friend and ask if they want to go jogging with you. Plan when you'll go and for how long. Trust me you'll feel great by the end of that run.

If you want to get somewhere, take action my lovelies.

Don't tell anyone what you're going to do

Good day all!

As my title has said. "Don't tell anyone what you're going to do".

Because when most people tell their friends what they'll be doing, or what they're excited to do in the future, some of them are most likely not to be doing what they planned on doing.

Like what I did with my "Worlds Fastest Workout Experiment" in my previous posts. I said that I'll be doing this work out for a few weeks and I would see the outcome. But I didn't do it. I wasn't committed.

So just a piece of advice for you.
When you have a goal or you want to do something that will probably change some part of your life, keep it to yourself until you've achieved it.

The Worlds Fastest Workout Experiment - Fail

Good day all,

As you've all noticed that I didn't post anything on July 28th 2012, which was suppose to be my proposed end date of my "Worlds Fastest Workout Experiment". Yeah, I didn't do it. I feel disappointed in myself for not doing it.

But I have to say that I did do the workout on the first week. And my Feedback is, I couldn't last the whole 4 minutes. This just proves I'm out of shape, and my stability is quite low. It was extremely tiring, but I know it's worth it if done constantly.

I apologize that I didn't do the experiment.

Have a great day!
xoxo 

The Worlds Fastest Workout Experiment

We all have at least extra fat we want to get rid of and we're too busy to fit "working out" into our busy schedules. 


The worlds fastest workout is only 4 minutes long and it's a full on body work out. Take a look.

I personally tried this workout, and I was surprised that I couldn't really finish the 4 minutes. But once I keep doing it I'll be able to do at least 8 minutes of this. 

I am going to try to do this at least twice a week. During Fridays and Saturday mornings. I am going to do this right after I do yoga and meditation for a month and see the result. 

This workout said it would increase the metabolism for 36 hours. I just had to try it, and so far it's going great. 

So, I just weighed myself and I am now 75kg (June 30th 2012). I know it's the same as January 1st but I've got to start some where. I am going to keep going until I get there. 

I started this workout yesterday morning. (June 29th 2012, Friday) but I did not check my weight before I did it though...and I did it again today morning (June 30th 2012, Saturday). I'll do it again until July 28th 2012, and see the results

The Worlds Fastest Workout Experiment

Start: June 29th 2012 

Start Weight (as of June 30th 2012): 75kg - 165lbs

Proposed End: July 28th 2012

Proposed End Weight: 50kg - 110lbs

I know some of you may thing that this is unrealistic, but I am going to try and see if it is possible to actually loose 25kg in a month with this full body 4 minute workout, plus doing my everyday activities. 

Lets see how it goes.

Vision Board 2012

Good day readers,

I finally purchased an actual board where I can pin stuff up to. The day I got it, I was so excited to start printing pictures and pinning them up to the board.

If you look closely you can see the different parts of my vision board, starting with my hair and body, on to a perfect relationships, down to traveling and seeing the world, and finally clothes. And of course 'the secret check'

I am in love with my vision board because of it I realized that there are some things that I don't really want, like a certain style of clothing that I know will not suit my body. This board is pinned up next to my bed, and I love where it is because when I get up, that's one of the first things I see, and when I go to bed, it's one of the last things I see. So it's perfect.

When I first set up my vision board a month ago, I have changed it 3 times. This just shows that having vision board actually word. It's something that everyone show have. It doesn't have to be physical, it can be on your computer, you can make some on photoshop as well if you like.

Vision boards are awesome! Its a more organized way to get your priorities straight. Its a way to know what you want. I encourage you all to make yourself one right now. Fill it up with all the random things you want, be creative and decorate it so that it'll catch your eye quicker. Remember, the only reason for a vision board is so that you can look at it and imagine yourself having those things. 

Updates (6.12.2012)

Good day my lovely readers,
I apologize for not posting anything up since March, I swear I've been meaning too but I seem to have lost my inspiration to do so, but now I've got it.

I just want this post to be about the updates on my lifestyle and how it's going, since using the Law of Attraction have become apart of me, and I cannot think of another way of living without it. Everything makes so much more sense because of it.

Lets start with the thing I've been focusing on for 3 years now. My Body. 
I am happy to report that it's going great! Even if I am not 50kg, I've got the body I've wanted or what I've been faintly imagining, I may want to loose some more here and there but for the past 3 years I haven't really been thinking or making it clear what I want my ideal body to look like, I wasn't quite sure on how it'll turn out. So every time I would sit and meditate, I would imagine my body, but not as clearly as I see other things. But what made me go through it, what made me feel happy about myself, what made my 'ideal body journey' go great is be loving myself. I've mentions in my previous blog posts, that loving yourself is one of the keys of getting you ideal body.

"One must love oneself for others to love you" some might say but I say "To get any where in life, One must love oneself"


I haven't weighed myself since I got back from the Philippines last month, but I have been doing my weekly yoga routine and eating whatever that makes me feel good and at the end of every night I would always feel great. Well to be honest, not every night, I would feel extremely tired during the night sometimes, just to be realistic.

The next thing to discuss is My Ideal Man.
I do not know if you all read my review of "Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man" by Steve Harvey on my book, fashion and food blog.
If you didn't here it is "Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man"

So, about my ideal man, I bet you all are wondering if I found him, aha. I thought I did. Turns out it wasn't him. I know most of you are thinking "you will never know if he's the one until the right time comes" or something like that. Yes, I approve of your judgement and beliefs, but I have my beliefs as well, which is making a list of the features of my ideal guy and using the power of thought and action to bring him to me. I know that maybe the end result will not be exactly according to my list but at least it is what I hoped for.

About the book, "Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man". It's a great book. I am extremely happy that a man has finally written a book like this. It just filled with information about men and relationships, I encourage all the ladies reading this to read it.
I am going to use this information as my basis, and soon, perhaps in a few months time, my time will come when I will finally have a date to a party or be on a date for once in my life at least!

My Ideal Job
I think I've said this in my older posts. "I will always go back to cooking".  Which is completely true. I cannot believe it. It just happened one day, during my break between my classes, I decided to google "La Cordon Bleu" and decided to visit their site. I found that they have branches all over the world, obviously not close to my country. This help me decide that I wanted to take masters in culinary arts, or at least a vocational course. This helped me decide my future. But the probability of me actually attending La Cordon Bleu is 4.5:10. When I spoke to my mum about it, and what branch I would like to go to (which was either Australia or Paris) what she was focusing on was the accent I was going to have when I come back. Then of course she asked if it was really culinary what I wanted to do in my future. When she asked me that question, I hesitated, and said "I guess, I think so" I was still unsure.
Even if I am unsure about my future, I have a plan, I have choices, I've made a list of what to do after I'm done with university.

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I am going to be finishing university in precisely 6 months time. I know it will go by fast as a bullet train but I think I want to make the best of it. It'll be my last years of actually being a kid and being immature and all that.

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I guess that's it. My 3 main things I want in life. Body, Man, Job. 
For now, that's it my fellow readers.
Until next time.

Imperfection

Good day my lovely readers.
I give my apologies for not blogging since new years. I've been trying to figure out what exactly to write about for the past 3 months, and now I know.

"IMPERFECTION"

I myself have a slight obsessive compulsive disorder, but not with things around me, but with myself. Everything that comes to me have to be perfect. My body, my man, my career choice. They have to be perfect. Everything has to fit perfectly into my life.

Most people say "Nobody is perfect". Whenever they say that to me, the first thing that pops in my head is, "pfft...anyone can be perfect" What I mean by that is anyone can be perfect in their own ways. Its like how you have your tea, some prefer it with more sugar, and its perfect, some prefer it with more milk, and its perfect.

Ever since I found that I could get things with the Law of Attraction, I realize that I could get PERFECTION. As most of you know that I've been on my weight loss journey since 2010, and since then I've made multiple deadlines throughout the years in which I would be come my ideal weight and have my ideal body. When I would reach my deadline, my weight would either still be the same, lessen or increase. I didn't have my ideal body nor was I my ideal weight.

This year 2012, I've made another deadline, March 14th 2012. In Japan is White Day. White Day is when a boy returns his love to the girl he likes by giving them chocolates, this event only happens in Japan. Its such a sweet event.

The reason why I chose this date is, well, I don't really know. I just chose it, thinking that it would mean something special to me.

As the day passed, I checked my weight, I hoped that I would at least loose a few kg's but instead I gained 2kg's. How depressing. I went like "Wtf am I doing wrong?"(excuse my language). I took a few minutes to stop and think of my actions so far, I said to myself "what is it? I must be doing something wrong. Think all over again" 

So I thought all over again, from the very beginning. I asked myself "What would I do in my ideal weight? How would I be like? How will my life be? How will I act?"

Last year, I had written on my ideal body vision board "To have an easy time finding the right size of clothes for me", "To go shopping", "To say thank you everyday", "to feel confident and comfy wherever I go"

I noticed that when I reread what I had written last year, To the universe, I already am my ideal weight and already have my ideal body. Now I realized that I am not doing anything wrong. I'm doing what I had written a year ago. What I wanted to be, and I am where I wanted to be a year ago.
I've changed the way I see myself in my ideal body. My sense of style has changed, my sense of thought has changed. The way I see perfection in my life has changed. I've grown.

When things like this happens in life, things that don't work out, things that disappoints you. Stop. Relax. Think of what you initially wanted. How it all fits in.

Here is a tip: When you want something, write it down. If you don't want anyone to see it, write it down in a notebook or a small paper, and keep it hidden, and hopefully you'll remember where you kept it. Reread what you had written a month later, and see how you feel about it.

♥...Love all...♥

New Year = New Beginning's, Fresh Starts, Rebooting Life

In a few hours, it'll be the year 2012 in my country.

2011 has gone by fast, and this time I really mean it, IT has gone by fast. This is the first time that I actually felt a year gone by so fast. 

I have some what kept to my new years resolution 2011.

What are our accomplishments for the year 2011? 

1. Bought something online (Kis-my-ft2 Debut Single "Everybody Go!")

2. I became more social and opened up

3. Got an internship for the first time and enjoyed it

4. Read 46 Books (just finished Pride & Prejudice a few minutes ago)

5. Experimented with many things (cooking, fashion, ideal careers)

6. Learned new things 

7. Met new people

8. Successfully made it to my 3rd year of University

9. Joined Toastmasters 

10. Kind of found my ideal career

12. Found my interest for the universe/outer space

11. Lost 4.5kg

I think that's it for the accomplishments this year. Not much, but it's something. 

I may have planned to become 50kg by the end of this year, but apparently, my 50kg body hasn't come yet. 

Throughout the year, I have been constantly fighting and trying to listen to my body, to try and get it into alignment with my thoughts and get it to go with the flow with the vibration. 

And by today, I have learned how to do it. You may be wondering how exactly to get your body to be aligned with your thoughts and the vibration of your ideal body & weight, all I have to say is, know what you want, be sure of what you want, and practice. Practice always makes perfect.

This year of 2011 has been my year of experiments and change, and so it was. I am so proud of myself for keeping to this. 

By tomorrow; January 1st 2012, will be the start of a New year, which means New beginnings, fresh starts, to obviously keep going.

Live today as you please and you will not regret it tomorrow. 

Love all, be grateful...xoxo

Happy New Year!!! *lights fireworks*

Organizers Experience

My Experiments on searching for my Ideal Career.

Lets start from the very beginning of when I started with this Job. 

It came to me through a friend. I told my sister about me wanting to try and be an organizer. So it happens to be that her boyfriend got a job offer to organize an event. I asked if I could intern under him. He agreed and I am so grateful for it. 

We organized an event; a talent show to be specific, that lasted for 3 months, that only requires me to go only on the weekends. Giving up my weekends wasn't that hard. I enjoy my time outside home. 

During the first week, I felt regret and fear. I took it as a fear of getting out of my comfort zone. I told myself, "you wanted this. you got it. Don't let it down. Just let it pass. Do your best." so I decided to put my feelings fear and regret aside and do my very best. So I did. 

At times, I would feel awkward, not knowing what to do. So I just observed what others are doing. They are all running around, rushing and panicking at times. All I was thinking is "What would I do, to get this event going as smooth as possible?" so I began thinking. "Things should be done before hand. Everything should be all ready to go. Everyone should be aware." 

I met new people. Whose company I enjoyed very much. At first I was quiet, as I usually am, but as I promised, I would be social. So I did. I tried my best to, and I am so proud of myself for doing so. 

As time passed, I thought the life of working as an organizer very exciting, and it requires you to be social and be extremely friendly and patient with everyone. When I said I wanted to work ON the field, this really counts as working ON the field. 

There will be times when you will love doing the job and times when you will hate it because the people sometimes complain about things not going their way. Doing this helped me understand more about how people act. I noticed that I am more of an observer. I write down little notes in my head about what to do and what not to do. Its like a list of life or something. 

In Conclusion, I really enjoyed being an Organizer, it helped me show another side of myself, another more exciting part of me. If there was another opportunity in which I would be organizing something, I would take it. As for it being my Ideal Job, maybe. I still don't know, but what I do know is that, as time passes, everything will all be clear to me.

I plan to major in Management at University, and probably take my masters in that as well. My mother wants to send me to a culinary school in the Philippines for 6 months. I absolutely don't mind taking a culinary class for 6 months. During my time working as an organizer, I've grown to miss cooking. I cook from time to time, making simple dishes. 

If I had a chance to actually go to the Philippines to take a vocational course on culinary for 6 months. I would. But I would like to take my Masters in Management first. 

"Love what you're doing every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every month of every year." ~ Naddyquotes 

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