Perfect Teeth, Loosing 4 kg, and everything else.

Last week, I got my braces. I got my bottom ones first then a few days later I got my top ones put in. I personally hate going to the dentist. I pulled out all of my baby teeth on my own, except one, when my mom forced me to go to the dentist and let the orthodontist pull it out of me. She didn't even give me a shot and I ready started crying my eyes out. I'm scared of needles in my mouth.

Due to terrible past events or occurrences during my childhood, I was left growing up with something called "Tongue Thrust". Where my tongue is just...I can't explain it. Google it.

Due to my Tongue Thrust, the orthodontist put in a barrier that will stop my tongue from pushing my front teeth out.

The first few days, my tongue was confused, swollen, my teeth hurt like hell, and I could barely eat anything solid. So I ended up eating all things squishy and liquid. Which meant; Oatmeal, Soup, Noodles, Yogurt, and Ice Cream.

That is the reason why I lost 4 kg in a such a short period. I could only eat things that are liquid and squishy. It was a pain. I was depressed for the entire week.

But things did turn out okay. I'm used to my braces, and I can see a big change in my teeth just in a week. Soon I'll have the perfect teeth I've been dreaming about.

At the beginning of the month, I was 72kg. I've been 72kg since the beginning for the year, and honestly I didn't think about it. I didn't really think about my weight as much as I did last year, and the year before that. I just let things flow. I went to the gym. I eat how I thought I was eat if I were my perfect weight. And I accepted who I was.

But loosing 4 kg in less than a month. It was just exciting and scary at the same time. After finally accepting that I am now 68kg, I have to be honest and say that I am terrified for gaining weight again. I haven't been 68kg in years. I try to focus on the good things.

Tip: If you've recently lost a lot of weight, and you're terrified to gain all that weight back, think of the good outcomes of it.
 - You look fabulous
 - You're lighter
 - Most clothes fit you perfectly
 - You feel great
 - You feel a lot more confident about yourself and your looks.

That's what I'm trying to focus on.

Everyone says that I've lost a lot. They actually see it - and that is what triggered my fear of gaining weight. But I am going to keep going, and I'm going to push through my fear. This is my body, and I can do what I want with it.

So determined... ahahaha

I'm going to a party later and I'm nervous, excited, and doubting whether I should go or not. But again, I am going to push through my fears and go. I need to get out of my comfort zone and go to a party with out the sister who is always looking out for me. I've decided to be the responsible one and the majorly confident one, and try to be shameless. Like Shameless Maya on youtube

http://www.youtube.com/user/shamelessmaya

Y'all should check her out. She is my inspiration to be confident in myself and to be shameless.

Okay this is getting too long.

My most precious advice I could give anyone, when they're going through hard times or not so hard times is to "Always think about the good things, before & after".

And one more thing I forgot to mention, I've started meditating before I sleep, and it helps me a lot. It calms my mind and my emotions. I keeps me still and really helps. I meditate using the mantra from Eat, Pray, Love "Om Namah Shivaya" which means "I honor the divinity within me". It's a great mantra.

Meditating before bed or in the morning is a great habit. It really helps when you're depressed, angry, scared or stressed. 

Love yourself, Love all!
Thank you!
Have a great day everyone! <3 br="">

The Meaning of Life

For the past week, I've felt completely lost and blank with my life. I started asking questions to myself like;
"Why are we in this world? Why is there life? Why is there the universe? How is all this possible? How is life impossible? What is the purpose of life? Why is it so meaningful?"

and other random questions of why are here, living on this planet in this universe.

I have basically been on auto pilot the entire week, thinking, wondering, cogitating my life and it's purpose. 

On Friday, my cousin came over, and I slightly opened up to her, and told her my thoughts and questions, and she showed me a video that at least explains the meaning of life. 

Here is the video if you want to watch it. Sex, Death and the Meaning of Life

My cousin explained to me that there is no real meaning of life, and that everyone has their own purpose and meaning to life. No one can really explain it's meaning. We even googled it and skimmed through the wikipedia page. Meaning of life.

At the end of everything that I read and watched for about 2 hours or less, and the entire day of trying to sink everything in and understand it. I came up with the conclusion that life has no meaning and that you have to enjoy the beauty of life and what it has to offer. 

I'll be finishing university on December at the age of 18. This seems another big leap in my life and I think this is the reason that made me think twice of the existence of entire universe and everything inside and around it. 

I still seem a bit lost and black and my brain is probably still on auto pilot. But, we just all have to face life head on and enjoy it. Enjoy what it has to offer, because who knows, we'll maybe only get one life. Or as most people say these days that really annoy the hell out of me "You only live once (YOLO)"

I fucking hate that line because it became so annoyingly mainstream. But it speaks that truth. You may only live once or you may be resurrected or something.  

You just have accept the life you have and enjoy the wonders of everything it presents, because to be completely honest, there is absolutely nothing you can do about it; besides kill yourself. 

The meaning of life is the most unanswered questions in the entire universe; in my opinion. Life is just there, without any explanation, it just exists and no one knows why. It is up to you what you do with yours. 

I am going to make the best of it. Starting with finishing university with honors. From there I'll have to decide what to do next. 

The Best in Me and You

For the past week, I've been kind of indecisive about what type of career I want to pursue in the future. I was thinking that if I knew what to do in the future, I could start now since I'm young and since I only have a year and a few more months of University left. I also decided that it would be a wise thing to do since I'm at a young age.

We usually do things that we are best at. Why not be experimental, and try to do thing that we're not best at and be the best in that. That's one formula to be the best in everything. Some may say that being the best in everything can seem very tiring and exhausting after a few weeks or months. All you need is motivation and a dash of inspiration. By doing all these, and trying to be the best you can at mostly everything you want to do ( and don't forget to have fun while doing it ) it will also build you a bright future.

A few years back, I heard a story about a man, who worked in many places, and learned many things. He learned these things from the people he worked for. I cant recall it clearly but in the end, he found the perfect job that applies to everything that he has learned, and became very successful.
I cant remember the details of the story but I feel that I can do something similar, you can do something similar. Be open to multiple opportunities.
Here is a quote from my Dad.
"Try everything once, If you don't like it don't do it again"
I would take these words with me everywhere when ever an opportunity to do something new arises. Fore it will give me motivation to do it and try it out.

For those who are unclear about what to pursue in the future, don't worry, it will come. Just try to be the best in want you enjoy doing and expand a little after that. Take it step by step.

My motivation is my dad's quote and the motivation I give to myself and to others. I give it to myself because by doing this, people will give motivation back to me (Love yourself and others with love you). My inspiration would be my future ahead of my future ( My married life with my ideal man, and our kids and grand kids, and great grand kids, knowing that I lived a successful life )
Make your own motivation and inspiration, if you can't then find one, because it is looking for you.

In conclusion, anyone can be the best in anything and everything. Get your motivation and inspiration to give you a boost. Futures are bright because we make them bright by shining our great success at it.

Have a great day. Be and Do your best.
Love to all! <3