My days

Hello my dearest readers!
What's up?

I thought I'd update y'all on the recent events that have occurred in my dull life lately.

Well since I've been done with university (with the classes and such) I have been doing absolutely nothing for the entire January besides going out occasionally in the weekends. I basically have been sitting home watching TV Series; most specifically Merlin, for the entire month.

Other than that I've been attending Toastmaster meeting twice every month.

I thought I'd share a picture. I'm over there on the far left corner with the chopsticks in the hair. 

This was taken during our latest meeting and the theme was "Chinese New Year"

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So yea. Now I am somewhat temporarily working for my dad. While I'm unsure of what I want to do next, I'm working for him. Helping out with managing the business and other stuff. 

I've been meaning to write a Valentines Day post but I somehow couldn't put myself up to writing it, I just wasn't feeling it. But I want to write something about Relationships and Love and all that. 

I can say that I somewhat have my ideal body. I'm alright with my body right now. There are some parts of it that I treasure and some that I wish that weren't there but I learn to love them through time. Like my tummy. xD

One thing I learned about getting to your ideal body is to find what you love about yourself, cherish it and love it to death, and you'll find more things that you love about yourself through time. I loved how my hands looked and from there I started loving other stuff on my body, and gradually I noticed my body changing to how I want it to be. 

I am and will forever be grateful for losing 18 kilograms in 3 years. 

When you're lost in life, just stay put and relax a bit. Love what you have now, and enjoy it. Soon you'll find the way. It may take time to reveal itself to you but it will come. Ideas will start popping up in your head, opportunities will start coming up, more people will acknowledge how good you are, and you will get there. Just keep on believing that there will always be a way

Organizers Experience

My Experiments on searching for my Ideal Career.

Lets start from the very beginning of when I started with this Job. 

It came to me through a friend. I told my sister about me wanting to try and be an organizer. So it happens to be that her boyfriend got a job offer to organize an event. I asked if I could intern under him. He agreed and I am so grateful for it. 

We organized an event; a talent show to be specific, that lasted for 3 months, that only requires me to go only on the weekends. Giving up my weekends wasn't that hard. I enjoy my time outside home. 

During the first week, I felt regret and fear. I took it as a fear of getting out of my comfort zone. I told myself, "you wanted this. you got it. Don't let it down. Just let it pass. Do your best." so I decided to put my feelings fear and regret aside and do my very best. So I did. 

At times, I would feel awkward, not knowing what to do. So I just observed what others are doing. They are all running around, rushing and panicking at times. All I was thinking is "What would I do, to get this event going as smooth as possible?" so I began thinking. "Things should be done before hand. Everything should be all ready to go. Everyone should be aware." 

I met new people. Whose company I enjoyed very much. At first I was quiet, as I usually am, but as I promised, I would be social. So I did. I tried my best to, and I am so proud of myself for doing so. 

As time passed, I thought the life of working as an organizer very exciting, and it requires you to be social and be extremely friendly and patient with everyone. When I said I wanted to work ON the field, this really counts as working ON the field. 

There will be times when you will love doing the job and times when you will hate it because the people sometimes complain about things not going their way. Doing this helped me understand more about how people act. I noticed that I am more of an observer. I write down little notes in my head about what to do and what not to do. Its like a list of life or something. 

In Conclusion, I really enjoyed being an Organizer, it helped me show another side of myself, another more exciting part of me. If there was another opportunity in which I would be organizing something, I would take it. As for it being my Ideal Job, maybe. I still don't know, but what I do know is that, as time passes, everything will all be clear to me.

I plan to major in Management at University, and probably take my masters in that as well. My mother wants to send me to a culinary school in the Philippines for 6 months. I absolutely don't mind taking a culinary class for 6 months. During my time working as an organizer, I've grown to miss cooking. I cook from time to time, making simple dishes. 

If I had a chance to actually go to the Philippines to take a vocational course on culinary for 6 months. I would. But I would like to take my Masters in Management first. 

"Love what you're doing every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every month of every year." ~ Naddyquotes 

<3

Finding the one

In the beginning of the year, I made a list of aspects I want my ideal guy I be. Some how unique aspects that will make me wonder if it's really him or not.
- tall
- handsome but cute in his own way
- straight hair
- talented
- athletic
- great body
- wants to see the world
- fav color: yellow
- knows the law of attraction
- has a great way of thinking
- westernized
Recently, I met someone that some how fit 5 of these aspects.
For a week I've been wondering if maybe he was the one but I know I should find out more about him.
I see him every week for work. And every week I find his company entertaining and comfy but due to me working, we weren't able to speak much.
What I am going to do is find out what I can and make sure he likes me.
I am still unsure. But I feel that maybe this can change some part of my life.
If you know, or some how feel that something can change your life, act on it.
Love all. <3
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Questions

We all have questions.
Questions if we should go out and buy the coffee or if we would like to take an opportunity.
Recently, I have been feeling a bit of anxiety. Having slight anxiety attack. And as these happen, questions started to come up.
Why am I feeling this way?
Is this something I should worry about?
How do I make it go away?
Should I tell anyone about it?
Let me tell you, if you have a certain problem that you can't seem to fix within 24 hours. Ask yourself the basic questions.
What do I want?
Is this what I want?
What will be the outcome if I do this?
Questions really help with your problems if you answer them honestly.
For a week, during my preliminary examinations at university, I've been having really really bad anxiety attacks. I couldn't focus on studying very well. I had to force myself to eat so that it wont look like there was something with me to my family members.
I have this thing in which I am not very open with my deep personal feelings to anyone close to me. I don't know why.
It is something I want to keep for now. I believe I can solve my own problems.
As the week ended, I got fed up with my anxiety, so I got out a piece of paper and pen and wrote down:
Why am I feeling this way?
Does it have to do with something that happened recently?
How can I make it stop?
It took me 2 days to answer those simple questions honestly.
And I solved my problem of anxiety. Instead of taking it in a bad way, i take it as inspiration. Like causing the Suspension Bridge Syndrome in a way.
My advice to you:
Ask yourselves simple questions that may help solve your problems. And answer those questions honestly.
May the best come to you!
Love all & Smile. :)

Believe and feel it.

Today 2 of my friends told me that they lost a few kg's. One of them said they lost 1kg, since she was on a diet, and was paying for it. The other said she lost 4kg in one week, and again diet and exercise. I congratulated both of them.
I thought of a woman who wrote that she lost 3kg in one night. And said to myself. 'i can lose that much in one night too'
I felt slightly jealous of both of them. Since they lost it in a small amount of time. I lost only 4-5kg in a year. And I am grateful for it.
I am going to keep on going because this year and many years to come is going to be my years. The years I'm going to fulfill my deepest goals.
Knowing that they lost that much in a small amount of time, made me feel like all my believing in the law of attraction seemed for nothing. No! It's not. We just have to make it specific.
Be able to see yourself in that body. Be able to see yourself getting on that scale and seeing that you are weight you've always wanted to be.
Have Confidence. Believe. And keep on Going! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

Friday, 12, February, 2010

My last weighing of this week.

84kg.

still no progress has been made.

next weigh, will be on the 26th of February. Which is 2 weeks from now.

Good Luck to me!
Believe in me!
Thank you so much!

Make it believable for you

This morning I went into my sister's room to wake her up for uni, and her laptop was playing THE SECRET.
I was watching it while trying to wake her up and I was amazed at what I just realized. When I heard one of the teachers who appeared in the movie the secret, they said "Do the things that you think is believable for you"
and I realized that they way I felt about becoming 50kg by my birthday which was April 4, I didn't feel certain that I was going to loose that much in less than six months. Something inside me believes that I can't loose so much in less than six months. So my face stayed put for a few minutes calculating how much time do I believe I need to become my perfect weight and have my perfect body.
I have this obsession to Japanese music, so I decided to set a date, on July 31st 2010, the birthday of one of my favorite Jrockers. When I had that thought in my head, "SIX MONTHS" i thought, "six months! WAW! I know I can do it in SIX months!" I felt positive and i believe that i can achieve it in six months.

it is now my goal to become my 50kg and have my perfect body in Six months.

Make it believable for you.

What Others Think

People would always tell me for years now,
"Nada loose weight" "Nada your too fat to fit in this dress, get a bigger one" "Nada how can you loose weight when your just sitting there" "we bought you a tredmil for nothing"
most of these things were said by the people who are close to me.

There are times when I feel as if some of the people who are close to me, don't want to be close with me, I feel as if their embarrassed to be seen around with me. I use to feel so closed about myself because I was bigger than everyone. But that was before. Now I feel more confident about myself.
When people say "Nada your too big!"
I know I'll be hurt, but then I would say to myself 'Who cares what you think!' then I would smile happily at the person and say "Thank you!" then walk away with shinning blue aura around me.

It doesn't matter what others think,
even if they say:
"You can't loose 10kg in just a few weeks" or
"You can't just learn a language in 2 days"
it doesn't matter what day think, It matters what you think, it matters on what you believe, If you believe that you can loose 10kg in just a few weeks, than you can.
Ask
Believe
Receive

we can do anything we want if you believe, and act.
Don't listen if people say negative things about you.
Let them be.
Listen to yourself and what you believe, and you will receive