July 31 2010

It is now the 31st of July 2010. The date i set in where i would succeed in my weight loss journey.

Some of you might say, "she didnt do it" but i say i did. I might have not lost as much as I hoped but I did lose. Some of you might say " you lost 2kg in 7 months" Nope i did not. I lost 2 kg in just 2 weeks. the past 7 months haven't been going so well as i hoped, due to my emotions going up and down, and my thoughts colliding with them.

So in conclusion to this short entry of July 31 2010
I have lost 2kg in 2 weeks. for the month of July. and I am now 83kg and I'm very happy about it!

PS:
I would like to say Happy Birthday Nao! who is now 30.

Not my first encounter

The feeling of being thin, having the life you've always wanted, feels utterly wonderful!

then when you check if there are any results,
and no results show, but in fact it got worse.
I checked my weight today, and instead of loosing alittle, i gained another kilo.
this feeling makes me want to hit myself and make me wear loose clothes, and eat whatever i want whenever i want. its the feeling of being so fat that no one can stop it because of how much it hurts.
it also makes me wonder if I'm meant to stay this way.

but no. I'm not going to stop there, this is not my first encounter with this feeling, i have gotten over it, and looked to the bright side of it.
the bright side of this is "ok sure, i'm this way, it gives me a reason to say, " I've been on a weight loss journey and i succeeded"" after this journey i want to help others with theirs.

so therefore, I will keep on going, *sings going!*
The purpose of this blog post is to vent ! ^o^