Candles make me feel better.

Hello there,

The feelings of worry, sadness, depression, anxiety, negativity, breakdown. These can all be over come  or controlled just by lighting a candle. 

Yesterday I bought new candles and it was also yesterday what I've grown a great interest for them. 

These are special candle because they "Sea Side Collection" 

I love the sea. Even thought I can't swim, I still love the sea, the ocean. But I despise water parks.  

So light yourself a candle, scented or not. 

Take a nap with it on.

It'll make you feel comfortable and so much better. 

xoxo

The Meaning of Life

For the past week, I've felt completely lost and blank with my life. I started asking questions to myself like;
"Why are we in this world? Why is there life? Why is there the universe? How is all this possible? How is life impossible? What is the purpose of life? Why is it so meaningful?"

and other random questions of why are here, living on this planet in this universe.

I have basically been on auto pilot the entire week, thinking, wondering, cogitating my life and it's purpose. 

On Friday, my cousin came over, and I slightly opened up to her, and told her my thoughts and questions, and she showed me a video that at least explains the meaning of life. 

Here is the video if you want to watch it. Sex, Death and the Meaning of Life

My cousin explained to me that there is no real meaning of life, and that everyone has their own purpose and meaning to life. No one can really explain it's meaning. We even googled it and skimmed through the wikipedia page. Meaning of life.

At the end of everything that I read and watched for about 2 hours or less, and the entire day of trying to sink everything in and understand it. I came up with the conclusion that life has no meaning and that you have to enjoy the beauty of life and what it has to offer. 

I'll be finishing university on December at the age of 18. This seems another big leap in my life and I think this is the reason that made me think twice of the existence of entire universe and everything inside and around it. 

I still seem a bit lost and black and my brain is probably still on auto pilot. But, we just all have to face life head on and enjoy it. Enjoy what it has to offer, because who knows, we'll maybe only get one life. Or as most people say these days that really annoy the hell out of me "You only live once (YOLO)"

I fucking hate that line because it became so annoyingly mainstream. But it speaks that truth. You may only live once or you may be resurrected or something.  

You just have accept the life you have and enjoy the wonders of everything it presents, because to be completely honest, there is absolutely nothing you can do about it; besides kill yourself. 

The meaning of life is the most unanswered questions in the entire universe; in my opinion. Life is just there, without any explanation, it just exists and no one knows why. It is up to you what you do with yours. 

I am going to make the best of it. Starting with finishing university with honors. From there I'll have to decide what to do next.