Imperfection

Good day my lovely readers.
I give my apologies for not blogging since new years. I've been trying to figure out what exactly to write about for the past 3 months, and now I know.

"IMPERFECTION"

I myself have a slight obsessive compulsive disorder, but not with things around me, but with myself. Everything that comes to me have to be perfect. My body, my man, my career choice. They have to be perfect. Everything has to fit perfectly into my life.

Most people say "Nobody is perfect". Whenever they say that to me, the first thing that pops in my head is, "pfft...anyone can be perfect" What I mean by that is anyone can be perfect in their own ways. Its like how you have your tea, some prefer it with more sugar, and its perfect, some prefer it with more milk, and its perfect.

Ever since I found that I could get things with the Law of Attraction, I realize that I could get PERFECTION. As most of you know that I've been on my weight loss journey since 2010, and since then I've made multiple deadlines throughout the years in which I would be come my ideal weight and have my ideal body. When I would reach my deadline, my weight would either still be the same, lessen or increase. I didn't have my ideal body nor was I my ideal weight.

This year 2012, I've made another deadline, March 14th 2012. In Japan is White Day. White Day is when a boy returns his love to the girl he likes by giving them chocolates, this event only happens in Japan. Its such a sweet event.

The reason why I chose this date is, well, I don't really know. I just chose it, thinking that it would mean something special to me.

As the day passed, I checked my weight, I hoped that I would at least loose a few kg's but instead I gained 2kg's. How depressing. I went like "Wtf am I doing wrong?"(excuse my language). I took a few minutes to stop and think of my actions so far, I said to myself "what is it? I must be doing something wrong. Think all over again" 

So I thought all over again, from the very beginning. I asked myself "What would I do in my ideal weight? How would I be like? How will my life be? How will I act?"

Last year, I had written on my ideal body vision board "To have an easy time finding the right size of clothes for me", "To go shopping", "To say thank you everyday", "to feel confident and comfy wherever I go"

I noticed that when I reread what I had written last year, To the universe, I already am my ideal weight and already have my ideal body. Now I realized that I am not doing anything wrong. I'm doing what I had written a year ago. What I wanted to be, and I am where I wanted to be a year ago.
I've changed the way I see myself in my ideal body. My sense of style has changed, my sense of thought has changed. The way I see perfection in my life has changed. I've grown.

When things like this happens in life, things that don't work out, things that disappoints you. Stop. Relax. Think of what you initially wanted. How it all fits in.

Here is a tip: When you want something, write it down. If you don't want anyone to see it, write it down in a notebook or a small paper, and keep it hidden, and hopefully you'll remember where you kept it. Reread what you had written a month later, and see how you feel about it.

♥...Love all...♥

New Year = New Beginning's, Fresh Starts, Rebooting Life

In a few hours, it'll be the year 2012 in my country.

2011 has gone by fast, and this time I really mean it, IT has gone by fast. This is the first time that I actually felt a year gone by so fast. 

I have some what kept to my new years resolution 2011.

What are our accomplishments for the year 2011? 

1. Bought something online (Kis-my-ft2 Debut Single "Everybody Go!")

2. I became more social and opened up

3. Got an internship for the first time and enjoyed it

4. Read 46 Books (just finished Pride & Prejudice a few minutes ago)

5. Experimented with many things (cooking, fashion, ideal careers)

6. Learned new things 

7. Met new people

8. Successfully made it to my 3rd year of University

9. Joined Toastmasters 

10. Kind of found my ideal career

12. Found my interest for the universe/outer space

11. Lost 4.5kg

I think that's it for the accomplishments this year. Not much, but it's something. 

I may have planned to become 50kg by the end of this year, but apparently, my 50kg body hasn't come yet. 

Throughout the year, I have been constantly fighting and trying to listen to my body, to try and get it into alignment with my thoughts and get it to go with the flow with the vibration. 

And by today, I have learned how to do it. You may be wondering how exactly to get your body to be aligned with your thoughts and the vibration of your ideal body & weight, all I have to say is, know what you want, be sure of what you want, and practice. Practice always makes perfect.

This year of 2011 has been my year of experiments and change, and so it was. I am so proud of myself for keeping to this. 

By tomorrow; January 1st 2012, will be the start of a New year, which means New beginnings, fresh starts, to obviously keep going.

Live today as you please and you will not regret it tomorrow. 

Love all, be grateful...xoxo

Happy New Year!!! *lights fireworks*

Organizers Experience

My Experiments on searching for my Ideal Career.

Lets start from the very beginning of when I started with this Job. 

It came to me through a friend. I told my sister about me wanting to try and be an organizer. So it happens to be that her boyfriend got a job offer to organize an event. I asked if I could intern under him. He agreed and I am so grateful for it. 

We organized an event; a talent show to be specific, that lasted for 3 months, that only requires me to go only on the weekends. Giving up my weekends wasn't that hard. I enjoy my time outside home. 

During the first week, I felt regret and fear. I took it as a fear of getting out of my comfort zone. I told myself, "you wanted this. you got it. Don't let it down. Just let it pass. Do your best." so I decided to put my feelings fear and regret aside and do my very best. So I did. 

At times, I would feel awkward, not knowing what to do. So I just observed what others are doing. They are all running around, rushing and panicking at times. All I was thinking is "What would I do, to get this event going as smooth as possible?" so I began thinking. "Things should be done before hand. Everything should be all ready to go. Everyone should be aware." 

I met new people. Whose company I enjoyed very much. At first I was quiet, as I usually am, but as I promised, I would be social. So I did. I tried my best to, and I am so proud of myself for doing so. 

As time passed, I thought the life of working as an organizer very exciting, and it requires you to be social and be extremely friendly and patient with everyone. When I said I wanted to work ON the field, this really counts as working ON the field. 

There will be times when you will love doing the job and times when you will hate it because the people sometimes complain about things not going their way. Doing this helped me understand more about how people act. I noticed that I am more of an observer. I write down little notes in my head about what to do and what not to do. Its like a list of life or something. 

In Conclusion, I really enjoyed being an Organizer, it helped me show another side of myself, another more exciting part of me. If there was another opportunity in which I would be organizing something, I would take it. As for it being my Ideal Job, maybe. I still don't know, but what I do know is that, as time passes, everything will all be clear to me.

I plan to major in Management at University, and probably take my masters in that as well. My mother wants to send me to a culinary school in the Philippines for 6 months. I absolutely don't mind taking a culinary class for 6 months. During my time working as an organizer, I've grown to miss cooking. I cook from time to time, making simple dishes. 

If I had a chance to actually go to the Philippines to take a vocational course on culinary for 6 months. I would. But I would like to take my Masters in Management first. 

"Love what you're doing every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every month of every year." ~ Naddyquotes 

<3

Finding the one

In the beginning of the year, I made a list of aspects I want my ideal guy I be. Some how unique aspects that will make me wonder if it's really him or not.
- tall
- handsome but cute in his own way
- straight hair
- talented
- athletic
- great body
- wants to see the world
- fav color: yellow
- knows the law of attraction
- has a great way of thinking
- westernized
Recently, I met someone that some how fit 5 of these aspects.
For a week I've been wondering if maybe he was the one but I know I should find out more about him.
I see him every week for work. And every week I find his company entertaining and comfy but due to me working, we weren't able to speak much.
What I am going to do is find out what I can and make sure he likes me.
I am still unsure. But I feel that maybe this can change some part of my life.
If you know, or some how feel that something can change your life, act on it.
Love all. <3
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Questions

We all have questions.
Questions if we should go out and buy the coffee or if we would like to take an opportunity.
Recently, I have been feeling a bit of anxiety. Having slight anxiety attack. And as these happen, questions started to come up.
Why am I feeling this way?
Is this something I should worry about?
How do I make it go away?
Should I tell anyone about it?
Let me tell you, if you have a certain problem that you can't seem to fix within 24 hours. Ask yourself the basic questions.
What do I want?
Is this what I want?
What will be the outcome if I do this?
Questions really help with your problems if you answer them honestly.
For a week, during my preliminary examinations at university, I've been having really really bad anxiety attacks. I couldn't focus on studying very well. I had to force myself to eat so that it wont look like there was something with me to my family members.
I have this thing in which I am not very open with my deep personal feelings to anyone close to me. I don't know why.
It is something I want to keep for now. I believe I can solve my own problems.
As the week ended, I got fed up with my anxiety, so I got out a piece of paper and pen and wrote down:
Why am I feeling this way?
Does it have to do with something that happened recently?
How can I make it stop?
It took me 2 days to answer those simple questions honestly.
And I solved my problem of anxiety. Instead of taking it in a bad way, i take it as inspiration. Like causing the Suspension Bridge Syndrome in a way.
My advice to you:
Ask yourselves simple questions that may help solve your problems. And answer those questions honestly.
May the best come to you!
Love all & Smile. :)

Vegetarian for a week

I decided a week ago that I could try to be a vegetarian for a week or month.
In the end, I couldn't really stand it, since it was cause people problems since they are concerned with what food i'm going to eat.

It was hard. Since my family are meat eaters.

There was a feeling of restriction.

In conclusion to this accomplishment, it was okay being a vegetarian. It was a challenge. A very good challenge. I enjoyed fighting for the need of restricting myself from meat.
Now because of this, I now how it kind of feels to be a vegetarian.

It felt good.

Thank you!
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Vegetarian. A week. A month

I woke up this morning feeling completely lost and not so much in the mood.
I wasn't hungry for breakfast, so I just did the things that needed to be done, and when I got hungry, I ate. I had a bowl of cereal.
As I was eating my cereal. What if I try to be a vegetarian for a day. Then I thought, perhaps a week or a month.

So I decided that I will be a vegetarian for a week or month, we'll see how long I last.

My reasons for choosing this:
- it makes me feel healthy and good about myself
- prevent different types of diseases, and cancer
- it is mostly my choice.
- helps get to your ideal weight

If I last a week. Then I'll do a month. If a month, why not continue. I could just eat meat once every week or so.

This is obviously for my ideal weight and body. Being healthy is one of my aspects of my ideal body. I want to be and feel healthy, and healthy I will be and feel.

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